ANGEL

Sitting by the Sea Side
Serene Silence surrounds me
Tip off the cliff staring right at me
The undying waves challenging me

I came across a Little Girl
With a balloon in Her Hand
Dressed in Impeccable White
Her Smile as Lovely as "Life" Itself

Angelic her Face Was
She saw me,Came towards me
She Held my hands
And Said "LET GO"

Shocked I was
But somehow it felt good deep inside
The touch of Her Palm
Cleansed my Soul

Her Eyes said it All
She Knew me
But a Fact Bewildered me
What is she"Talking About"

"You Know Me" I asked
Her reply sent a chill down my spine
Her voice eased my pain
The Anguish within me seemed to vanish

"Nothing in Life is bigger Than Life Itself" she said
"Love it and It will Love you back" I promise
so small she was
But her words were mesmerizing

I nodded my head in acceptance
She displayed her lovely smile again
She took away all my sufferings
With Her;While i was Sitting by the Seaside

Addiction

The whiskey in me
Made me dance in my dreams
My thoughts running amok
Adream I wish would come true

I thought of things
I know I sholdn't Have
But my mind was not under control
Now the grass comes into Play

The deadly cocktail,
Took its toll;Realizing
I donot belong here
Calling the devil of outer World

The Angels seemed more Devilish
THan The DEvil Itself
The Devil Smirks
A sinister born

The Bell kept tollin
The Hammer in full swing
The evil singing

I tried to block that thoughts
Rising for some Air
The Skyline seems to calling
Earth had become magnetic in nature

The lifelessness became Lively
With cocaine by my side
Calling me with Open Arms
I relented,But no use

The addiction in me
Betrays me,Each time
I was Trippin',But
I kept it Away,Maybe for some other time

The deadly cocktail
HAd taken its Toll
It took me to the outer World
Among the devils

A New World

I wandered into a different world
With so many shining suns
But only one Moon,Riding High on Spirits
With no Despair

I tried to delete the past
With the sea high on tides
The Evil by my Side
A World unimaginable

Tried to get away
But it haunted me
In my sleep and Sunshine
It got difficult

Under the starlit sky
With each of them mocking me
Trying to pull
I ran far away for some Light

Light seems to Fade
Love seems to Crop
Life seems to come to an end
Trying to delete the past
And redress the present

The Traitor within me

Lying on my Bed
I tried Hard not to think
But my Mind Betrayed Me
And I realized my sleep has become a traitor

Yes, the Traitor is within me
Which has become Difficult to fight with
I know It has to stop
Trying to make myself stronger

If it would have been for the outside world
I would have murdered it long back
But it grows stronger each day
Never giving up, It murders me from deep Inside

Life seems to have come to a Halt
I wish I could Kill it
But instead I gave up
And tried to live with it
Hoping it will Die its Own Death

Mystery

Standing by the endless river
Beyond The Horizon.I stare
Under the shining Moon
The Mystery yet to unfold

The Tide within me grew
I thought I was alone
There was a conspiracy against me
The Mystery was unfolding


I was in a Misery
I decided to get out of it
Someone was watching over me
And suddenly I wanted to unleash my soul
I tried hard to unlock the Mystery

But the World was again conspiring against me
I unlocked the doors
TO discover the real me
I found the keys of the door
Which would unlock the Mystery

LyF:2

LyF was better
When you were not there
It could have better
If you were there

I made a mistake in LyF
I fell in Love
I know I shouldn't have
But I wish It would have been in my hands

I tried to move on
But in vain
Your Love seems to pull me back
In your Arms,which I wish
Were open for me

But I have learned to Live
With you in my dreams
Without you,in person
But LyF never stops
For anyone,Not even you
It just encountered a Hurdle

I tried to overcome the hurdle
But fell,face first
It hurt
But your absence hurts more

LyF was better
When you were not there
IT could have been Better
If you were there

LyF

LyF is not about the years u have spent on earth
LyF is not about how much u have earned in here
LyF is not about how many friends u make here
LyF is not about the endless luxuries
It is but much more

LyFis about how much love u get in return
LyF is about how u connected with god
LyF is about how many needy people u helped
LyF is about how u behave
IT is,indeed,much more than this

LyF is not a bed of roses
LyF is not endless peace or war
LyF is not about You
LyF is not about Me
It is always much more

LyF is a song
LyF is a mysterious adventure
LyF is about the soul u put
LyF is like rain in the dessert
It is but much more

Game of LyF

LyF just played a game
My LyF walked out on me
I dont know what went wrong
It was so good and now its gone

In the past 4 years I have known you
My LyF has never been better
Trust me,I owe you
But You walked out on me
May be for the Better

You said you cannot live with me anymore
Its not your fault
But I dont know what went wrong
Maybe Love walked out for both of us
But today when you walked out on me
The latent Love stare right at me


LyF just played a game
My LyF walked out on me
I dont know what went wrong
IT was so good and now its gone

That Feeling called "LOVE"

Define LOVE??
"Love is nothing but an extension of Lust" was an honest answer by me to a question posted to me by a friend,he naturally disagreed and a heated debate ensued with neither of us budging from our respective point of views.For Him Love was something pure,something unparalleled,but I opined Love is the self-delusion we manufacture to justify the trouble we take to have sex and no more,but until the inevitable happens to you,Yes I use the word inevitable because you lose control over your emotions and all your plans goes into the drains.


Love does not come knocking on the doors of your heart,it just seeps through somehow rudely,from GOD knows where.The standard practice of listening to romantic songs becomes a paranoid reality and you feel How does the lyricist came to know about your feelings.Has he also been through the same flow of emotions.How come he is speaking your mind or rather Heart.

Then when you have bathed yourself completely in the feeling,you decide to take the hardest step in your life after much thought and consideration,contemplating for days and nights you gear up for the battle to take on the War.

Lets consider few scenarios(There are more,but lets stick to few)

Case 1(Quick Rejection)
Boy walks up to the girl
Boy: "Baby You Rock my World"
Girl: What!! Are you out of your mind.You disgust me.
Story over.The boy went to taste some flesh but ends up tasting Ash.


Case 2(Most Common)
The boy and girl have known each other for quite sometime now and when the boys Heart is filled up to the brim he decides to face the music and takes the first step towards The path that leads to His love.He will try to make several attempts to do so face to face but in vain,then he resorts to technology,and confesses about his love via Email or SMS.
The girl will make him wait,wait and wait.In the meantime the boy will become a nervous wreck susceptible to even the slightest of noise or touch.Then Again he has to gather enough courage to ask the girl and the reply will be the most cliched one probably heard over more than thousand of times"I never thought of you like this.We will always remain friends and blah,blah,and some more blah.
The Boy would be forced to think,in retrospect,why did he even asked in the first place,left to nurse a bruised Heart.

Case 3(On the hook)
The boy will ask the girl and the girl will not take a decision,she will keep him on the hook for sometimes months at a stretch,testing the waters in their relationship,judging and misjudging every little step of the boy.

CASE 4(The silent LOVER)
The boy in this case will never confess his feelings ever except to few of his trusted aides,keeping his feelings to himself and never gathers enough courage to confess.The feeling will keep eating him from inside like White ants,and the slow poison will ultimately make him averse to the whole idea of love.

(Lets get into the aftermath of being in a relationship or not being in one,they are different stories altogether)

Love is not a chimera,it is not a process that can be thought of,it will happen when you cannot even fathom.You cannot say Now that I am free and have nothing to do lets fall in love all I need is a girl to fall in love with.It does not work that way because even if it does you are not in love but in,Love with the idea of being in love,You want to get a feel of being in a relationship.

Obviously you cannot force the one you love to love you back,that will be the most outrageous thing to even think about ,and you will only dilute your love for her at least in her eyes or rather Heart.If you can find someone who loves you back with the same intensity as yours or even a notch lower,consider it as a blessing as if you have set the Thames on fire(or Ganga in the Indian context)

P.S:YEh ishq nai aasan bas itna samajh lijiye,EK aag ka dariya hain aur doob ke jaana hain.